Thursday, May 14, 2009

Cloves for Your Little Mind

Thank you, AC, for your comment, which is accurate. Sad that so many engage in cutting. I hadn't intended on writing about self-harm, but I sort of went there. I've done 21 stitches worth of cutting, and permanent burns from muriatic acid on my arm and foot. My motive was to distract myself from racing thoughts that included a melange of suicidal contemplation and guilt. So pain and the "rush" of cutting motivated, and sometimes still, motivates me.

It's why one might drink, do drugs, or go to a NASCAR event. To deaden the nerves a bit.

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